At what point does PMS or total exhaustion become depression? I get an average of 4 hours of sleep each night, so I'm always tired. I, like nearly every woman, have tons of hormones running rampant, and I think nursing the baby makes them even more crazy.
But lately I have just been so emotional and feeling so blue sometimes, that I am wondering if it is more than just hormones or being tired.
Because I am so tired all the time, I feel like my kids are suffering for it. I want to be the best mom to them that I can be, and I feel like everyday that I'm not 100% for them, is yet another day of their precious childhoods that has slipped away from me.
My family and friends are always complimenting me on being such a good mom. But I'm not. I feel like I am a terrible mom. There was an episode of Desperate Housewives not too long ago where Lynette (played by Felicity Huffman) says "I love my kids so much. I'm so sorry they have me for a mother." This line hits so close to home sometimes. Wouldn't they be better off with another mom?
I know this is a depressing rant, but I just needed to get stuff off my chest. Thanks for reading, fellow bloggers.
Tuesday, May 10, 2005
Depression vs. Exhaustion vs. PMS
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I think we all feel that way sometimes, for me...most of the time!
Girl...you need more sleep! I would suggest a bottle at night to help her stay full longer.
You have to take care of you. No one's happy if the mama's not happy!
hugs!
I wish it was as easy as giving Maddie a bottle at night. She actually sleeps through the night. The reason I don't get enough sleep is because of my stupid newspaper route. Oh well, hugs to you too!
Oh yeah! Duh to me! Too bad people don't want to wait until noon or so to get their papers!
I know it may not be possible, but things will get so much better. A good rule of thumb that I learned in my life learning skills class during my final semester of college is that one should "go to bed the same day they woke up." It has really helped me. Also, 7 hours is adequate. Less than 7 hours or more than 7 hours of sleep is not good.
Also, try:
- Making a list of priorities. Taking things step by step. Is what you think you have to do something that will cause you serious harm if you don't do it? (Most likely it won't be)
- Every morning, write a list of 10 things (anything) you are thankful for and read it to yourself.
- At night, perhaps you should try writing 10 good things that happened to you in the day.
There's a theory in psychology that one can "trick" their own mind by simply saying positive things to themselves and drilling those positives into their minds.
It all sounds too good to be true, I know. However, give it a try for a week and see how it goes.
P.S. I like your site! :)
- Holly
http://www.hollylovebug.blogspot.com
If you've felt this way for more than 2 weeks, I would at least talk to your doctor or a nurse. I think smaller episodes of those things are part of a "normal" life though. It doesn't make it any easier! I love the Huffman quote. I feel that way sometimes too. Luckily our kids seem to have an inherent unconditional love for us. They are quick to forgive! (At least while they are young LOL).
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